Meet @fitaimee_ra

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•••• She says...."ive suffered through many #miscarriages due to my #autoimmune disease (#rheumatoid arthritis), so when the doctors said this #pregnancy would go to term, I felt numb. I was going through the motions & didn't get to enjoy my pregnancy. sure I got excited with each movement & milestone, but I wasn't overjoyed or happy & that made me #depressed. After the baby was born I felt the insane unconditional love but once I got home & real life happened, I was wishing I never got #pregnant. Everyone says #motherhood is hard & I believed them, my mood just made me feel like I should have never had a baby. I would cry almost every night because I didn't want to be called 'mommy' and I was forcing myself to bond with my baby. After I would feed her, I would hand her off to her dad & I would get on my phone because I needed an escape & not get attached to my daughter. -- There were so many days I felt lonely, unworthy & shell of myself. I didn't know how I was or who I should become" - To continue reading, check out @fitaimee_ra full story on her page🦋 ••• Thank you so much @fitaimee_ra for sharing your story with me. ••• “on Instagram... everyone looks like they have their shit together”